My plan is to use all the things I've used over the years that have helped me and start a self care/healing environment.
Yoga/Stretching - I find this massively helps. In time I would love to be able to teach recovery yoga for sufferers. I believe it helps create self awareness, body confidence and helps relax. The thought aswell that exercise is to be enjoyed and can help heal. It doesn't always have to be about punishing, abusing yourself, burning calories or been competitive. From a Personal Training point of view and a sufferers point of view this really works for me. I can zone out and refocus by using pilates/yoga or stretch.
Eat and stick to the plan - Over the last few days I've felt ok with allowing myself to stick to my meal plan. Whether I purge or restrict or binge the next meal/snack has to be put in place. It's a constant battle but regular eating and been strict with it all is key. I find that that's why units have helped before, they have restored my pattern in eating. No matter how you feel or how crap you are at dealing with it the next meal is waiting for you.
Friends - I have a small group of friends who I can talk too (mostly friends I've made in later life). I've started to make a point of stopping people pleasing. Toxic people need to go. I have lots of people who would help me in a crisis but the people who don't help or can even add to a crisis have to be on the back burner. I'm nowhere near strong enough to deal with it. I'm a very emotional person when it comes to relationships and tend to get myself into hot water as I create situations from me willing to bend over backwards for people. It's not going to get me anywhere. My little family and myself need to come first. I feel like a complete dick writing that but it's true. I am nothing without my babies and Lee. Simple.
Clothes - Somewhere in my daily routine I manage to get clothes out for the next day for us all. In the midst of getting children fed and ready for school in a morning I really don't have the strength to be stood infront of my wardrobe having the debate of what I feel less fat in. Thinking about it the kids have actually helped here. I used to spend ages worrying and changing outfits about 15 times and would always end up in my comfy jeans and hoody. My aim with clothes is to keep doing this. Keep preparing every evening. Make a decision and stick with it. Don't stray from it. I also need to be avoiding my tiny clothes and at the same time avoiding my baggy clothes. I met with a friend a few weeks back now and she was amazed that it's the first time in 8 years she's seen me in a figure showing top. When she told me this I tried to embrace it as hard as it was and avoid all the questions ana was shouting in my head. Each day if I can walk out the house in an outfit that doesn't consist of my skating hoodys and trackies and look presentable I'm winning.
Been kind to myself and my family.....Prob the biggest one. There was a time when I would literally flip if the toaster was on the side and there were crumbs. Very angry Claire. This isn't needed and isn't a wise choice in the light of having children. I've done some really angry things and violent outbursts have been had....at mealtimes, at been upset with myself and wound up about everything. Been kind to myself is very hard but I've learnt it has a massive knock on effect of everyone around me. The kids are happy if mummy is happy. The husband is happy if the wife is happy (most of the time). My friendships and life balance is happy if I'm calm and collected. Pugs and hugs xxxxx
Yoga/Stretching - I find this massively helps. In time I would love to be able to teach recovery yoga for sufferers. I believe it helps create self awareness, body confidence and helps relax. The thought aswell that exercise is to be enjoyed and can help heal. It doesn't always have to be about punishing, abusing yourself, burning calories or been competitive. From a Personal Training point of view and a sufferers point of view this really works for me. I can zone out and refocus by using pilates/yoga or stretch.
Eat and stick to the plan - Over the last few days I've felt ok with allowing myself to stick to my meal plan. Whether I purge or restrict or binge the next meal/snack has to be put in place. It's a constant battle but regular eating and been strict with it all is key. I find that that's why units have helped before, they have restored my pattern in eating. No matter how you feel or how crap you are at dealing with it the next meal is waiting for you.
Friends - I have a small group of friends who I can talk too (mostly friends I've made in later life). I've started to make a point of stopping people pleasing. Toxic people need to go. I have lots of people who would help me in a crisis but the people who don't help or can even add to a crisis have to be on the back burner. I'm nowhere near strong enough to deal with it. I'm a very emotional person when it comes to relationships and tend to get myself into hot water as I create situations from me willing to bend over backwards for people. It's not going to get me anywhere. My little family and myself need to come first. I feel like a complete dick writing that but it's true. I am nothing without my babies and Lee. Simple.
Clothes - Somewhere in my daily routine I manage to get clothes out for the next day for us all. In the midst of getting children fed and ready for school in a morning I really don't have the strength to be stood infront of my wardrobe having the debate of what I feel less fat in. Thinking about it the kids have actually helped here. I used to spend ages worrying and changing outfits about 15 times and would always end up in my comfy jeans and hoody. My aim with clothes is to keep doing this. Keep preparing every evening. Make a decision and stick with it. Don't stray from it. I also need to be avoiding my tiny clothes and at the same time avoiding my baggy clothes. I met with a friend a few weeks back now and she was amazed that it's the first time in 8 years she's seen me in a figure showing top. When she told me this I tried to embrace it as hard as it was and avoid all the questions ana was shouting in my head. Each day if I can walk out the house in an outfit that doesn't consist of my skating hoodys and trackies and look presentable I'm winning.
Been kind to myself and my family.....Prob the biggest one. There was a time when I would literally flip if the toaster was on the side and there were crumbs. Very angry Claire. This isn't needed and isn't a wise choice in the light of having children. I've done some really angry things and violent outbursts have been had....at mealtimes, at been upset with myself and wound up about everything. Been kind to myself is very hard but I've learnt it has a massive knock on effect of everyone around me. The kids are happy if mummy is happy. The husband is happy if the wife is happy (most of the time). My friendships and life balance is happy if I'm calm and collected. Pugs and hugs xxxxx
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